My Addiction
She was outgoing and as beautiful as any around
I wasn't there to find anyone let alone a relationship
They told me she was the dirty rag they passed around the club
They told me she wasn't worthy, they really didn't know I wasn't worthy
I saw the spirit of the Woman in front of me & my addiction took full effect
Once she sat in front of me, my fate was sealed I couldn't live without her.
I stepped outside myself and I fell in the deep dark recesses of her
Within hours of knowing her I was prepared to kill for her literally
She asked so little and deserved so much more than she could hope for
I felt her very core the good and the bad and saw our future
It took all the patience I didn't even realize I had, but I wasn't sad anymore
I knew the others were not seeing her soul but the the survivor exterior
They labeled her a whore and dismissed the beauty that was inside.
From the second I knew her I could never be without her again
The addiction of her, has almost killed me. Too much of a good thing.
My soul aches for her but she has no room for me now.
I hurt her and broke the ties that bound us together
I didn't mean to, but I did and now it consumes me.
In knowing I murdered our Love I have a hard time living
The pain of my addiction cuts deep into my soul
The most precious flower that I was graced with is now a withered bud
The thorns cut into the flesh of my being sharper than any sword
Life without her love is unbearable yet because I broke our Love I must endure
I must live with her, knowing it will never be the same
Our Love was so great that the shadow burns my eyes as the tears flow
Now I must live on, I just don't know how. And for right now I don't want to
I just want the pain of my addiction to go away, maybe some day
I long for the warmth and beauty, and light, but I can't even dream
For the addiction will kill me.
