CHAPTER 7
Now she and I alike were both fully naked, she standing up me laying back on the bed as she came and sat down first then lay back along with me and propped herself up on her right arm on her chin and cheek, leaned over me looking again right into my own face and eyes.
Just laying there like that looking me directly in the eyes she said; “Jackie how do you feel?” I replied to her I felt so utterly fantastic.
Good that’s super good Jackie she replied to me.
Then she said; “Jackie are you ready to talk about it?” Talk about what I said to her?
“Oh you know Jackie about things?” Patti said.
As now she was mothering me, as she reached her other arm out and began stroking her fingers through my hair, and still looking me right in the eyes.
I again asked what things Patti?
She just steadily looked me right in the eyes, saying nothing at that moment thinking about somehow how to ask me what she wanted me to talk to her about.
Then said; “Oh you know Jackie about things, like things that happened, you know like things in that barn that day?”
As I was looking her right in the eyes I saw a strange glow come into her deep blue eyes, a glow that made me shudder and shiver all over, but also the thing of that barn and that day coming forth into my mind along with that made me do that.
I myself thought long and hard about it, though my mind was freed of the chains that bound me inside about it all, and I finally said; “Why do you want to know what happened that day in there Patti?”
“Oh you know Jackie she replied.” “Curiosity and all that Jackie.”
I was shaking fearfully now, and why I cannot say, maybe it was because I feared telling her anything about it with the same feeling that what if anyone else ever finds out fearful.
She just still stroking her hand and fingers through my hair comforting me and then said; “Jackie no one else will ever know what you tell me, that is our secret.”
I just half stuttered out to her asking why do you want to know about that day in the barn so much Patti?
She just said; “I’m intrigued by it all Jackie, I think about it sometimes like you know?”
Know what I replied to her?
She then went on; “Oh Jackie you know, like how did they get you to do it, how were you this and that in it, and you know like what was it’s thing like Jackie?”
I really did not want to talk about it at all and I told her so much as that.
Still looking me in the eyes as she was and running her fingers through my hair still, she slowly moved her hand and fingers down and ever so slightly and sensually over my cheek then down under my chin, and slowly to the side of my neck and across the front of it onto the other side the same sensuous way she had touched my cheek and elsewhere.
Then she said in a pleading manner; “Oh please Jackie, oh please tell me all about it?”
Any other time I would have flat gotten up, and walked out of that room storming mad as hell, but the way she was touching me, the way she was pleading with me, the euphoric condition I was in, had me considering it now. Maybe it was to get told to her and thusly shut her up about asking for details of it all.
Since I had clammed up tight about it all she seemed totally frustrated, and stopped stroking her hand and fingers sensuously around my neck as she was, and then just rose right up into a sitting position, reached over grabbed that little pouch and pulled out that same one she’d injected me with some of earlier.
Took it pulled the cap off and had yet another little ball of cotton, and in my state of being as I was from the first dose of it, I had not one chance in hell to get away from her, but she grabbed my arm pulled it out tightly and then and there again began slowly injecting more of it directly into my bloodstream as I began to shiver and shake and was groaning and moaning out loudly.
I horridly watched as she slowly pushed more and more and more up into me, as my head started to spin, the whole room began flashing before my eyes, and I never felt anything else my whole body became instantly numb to everything, and all that consumed my mind and body now, was a near horrible shooting agony of total and complete loss of everything.
Now how long that lasted I have no idea of the time at that point, but a further even more agonizing euphoria came over me as I tried my best to fight against it, only to make it rush through my mind and body even harder and far far worse.
Then suddenly total and complete tranquil peace came over me, so strong and so direct it was I believe I actually began laughing at least that seemed to me like that’s what I was doing and hell who really knows I was at that point totally fucked up.
Finally things seemed to settle back down but that strong euphoric feeling sure as hell didn’t, it got worse far far worse.
Thinking on it now, she had to do it. Why you ask? Well the healing cannot start until you totally and absolutely release that which is sickening you! Think about it? Pneumonia cannot heal until your fed full of antibiotics and things to stop your lungs from filling with fluid right.
Well that same exact way of healing mentally applies just the same.
In order for your mind to heal from your sickening pent up mental condition the disease(trauma, etc.) must be free of your minds holding it so tightly consumed.
Now that said, Yes Patti did indeed have a tenure to again do that to me oh yes no doubt about that and she admitted to me about it. But in order to heal the wound caused by what she wanted me to come fully out and tell her was indeed to help me heal mentally from it. And it sure did that!
I don’t know how long I had laid there in that condition until things began to get clearer and clearer at least in my seeing things, and slowly as my eyesight returned from seeing stars flying about the whole galaxy, it did return.
And once again right there face to face with me and now a big pillow under my head, was Patti who told me welcome back to the world Jackie.
I was so far out of it now and so way off into a outright fully euphoric state of mind I couldn’t have done a thing but smile at her like I did.
She just stayed there once again running her free hand and fingers through my hair and down onto and all around my neck, now her slightest touch sent wild erotic shivers throughout my whole entire body.
Looking me right into the eyes still awaiting my minds full return to be able to talk she waited.
Finally she said; “So tell me Jackie, tell me everything about that day?”
Now my mind still could not fully grasp just what she wanted me to tell about, like what day? What day are you talking about Patti?
Though I still could not verbally respond to her as yet, she waited, knowing it was in my mind and as soon as it registered inside it about it, it could begin.
Now her fingers had moved themselves up onto my shoulders sending wild erotic tingling throughout my body, so wild it was that I felt every hair on my body stand on end like goose bumps times 300.
She stopped doing that seeing that I was about to explode from the powerful erotic feelings shooting through my body.
Finally I was to the state of mind for it to register what day she was even talking about, and it became like an out of body experience for me thereafter.
Now again she asked; “Please oh please Jackie tell me everything about that day, and everything that went on and happened inside the barn?”
In the state of mind I was in now and being as if I was one person here and now, and yet another person then and there I did indeed begin to tell the story.
