I might have been gay or at least bi forever. I just didn't give it a chance until I was old. I was raised in rural southern Mississippi. We were poor sharecroppers. We had a two-hole outhouse about 30 yards from the back porch. The Sears, J C Penny, & Montgomery Ward catalogs were as thick as the N Y Phone books; they came free in the mailbox. That was our toilet paper. They provided a few pages suitable for masturbation assistance as well. When I finished H S, I worked one year with my dad but soon realized I wasn't cut out for farming. I moved to the city expecting to be hired, paid well, have fun, etc.

I kinda forgot about room and board costing money up front while work paid weeks after starting. Oh well, peanut butter, bread, milk will be okay. One sandwich per day & a half pint of milk from the store works. Luckly, I got a job in a factory, night shift which paid 10 cents more per hour in shift differential. When I got paid, I almost cried. 12 days on the job & 5 days pay. Something about pay cycles and hold back stuff I didn't understand but was assured the next check, two weeks later would have a full 10 days pay.

I was in need of free things to do so I went to parks, sat at tables in the shade when I could find one near a tree. I'd shine my shoes and watch for squirrels, birds and a few people for entertainment. I soon learned about the public restrooms building in one park. That was ideal for me. I couldn't afford to drive back to the apartment when I had to make a 1/2 tank of gas last two weeks. I used that place for almost two weeks without incident. I not only relieved myself there but occasionally beat off in the closed-door stalls with crude art and "for a good time" numbers on the door and walls. One day I entered and all three men's stalls were occupied with doors locked on the inside. I stood at the urinal on the left, closest to the last stall. I had to push down painfully on my super hard dick to keep from peeing on the wall above the urinal. When I finished peeing, I started to jack off. Just about the time I was going to finish, I heard a tapping sound. I looked left and saw a guy with fingers sticking thru the hole bigger than a doorknob. He was watching me. When he saw me look at him, he replaced his fingers and eye with his open mouth and tongue sticking out. I kept jacking off. He pulled back, looked again, stuck his fingers thru and curled to beckon me over. I'd never considered it but I was on the verge. I walked over and laid it on his tongue. He pushed thru the hole for more. It felt good. I gave him all of it and exploded into his incredibly deep mouth. A few weeks and 10 blow jobs later, he blew me in the car. I couldn't believe how easy it was for him to slide my 6 1/2 cock down his throat. He was sitting over by the passenger door in my bench seat car. He was watching me jack off thru my open fly. When I made a sound indicating I was past stopping it, he just leaned over, replaced my hand with his mouth and pushed his lips thru the fly against my balls. He stayed there for 10 full seconds. When he came up, he stopped with the head in his mouth for another 10 seconds. When he sat up, looked around and said, "Wait for the last of it." I held it up as it tried to welt. He looked around again, reached over to replace my hand. He squeezed just above the balls, leaned over and let me watch the cum appear as he pulled up on my cock. His head blocked my view as he took half of my cock in his mouth and drained me with a suck I felt in my balls. He sat up, said "Thank you." turned and got out.

Fast forward 50 years and find me retired, widowed for 10 years and 5 years into men and only men. I didn't "come out" but I did commit to that life for myself. First, I trained myself using sex toys. Second, I traveled to gay hang outs and managed a few good and a few disappointing experiences. I soon discovered, I really like thick cum but dislike the thin watery kind. Without even thinking, I take the thin till I'm forced to let it fall out and got back on that dick to finish it but still no desire to swallow it. Thick, on the other hand, wonderful stuff. My first was a 50 something, 5-inch-thick cock. He was jacking it at the arcade watching straight sex with me seated near him. I leaned over to suck him and he was cumming just as I got on it. It was the best. I was so happy with myself. I sucked another one thru a hole in the same arcade a few minutes later. A month after that, I got my first deep throat. He was a 50-year-old, wealthy black man with a beautiful 7-inch loin. He presented it to me after helping me jack my own in the arcade booth. He gave me pleasant looks when he saw how much I admired his cock. I leaned over and took him over half in. He gently pulled me with one hand on the back of my head. I came off it; he let me. I looked up and said, "I've been practicing for this. If I make it, don't hold me if I want to come up for air." He just smiled and nodded. I made it on my first try. I hesitated, memorizing how deep he was in my throat. I came off, did not look up. I just admired that glistening slab of meat. I took a few deep breaths before deeping him again. This time, he was harder which made it easier to get it in the throat. When I pressed my lips to his stomach, I used one hand to pull his ass which helped me do another 1/2 inch. I felt it in my throat. I was so proud. His hand was on my head but he didn't resist when I pulled back. I fucked the bottom two inches 4 times before coming up for air. Two deep breaths and his hand on my head indicated he clearly needing me back on it. I felt the first thick, warm glob on my tongue just as I started for the third deep throat plunge. He pulled me forcefully all the way to his stomach. I felt his ass tighten to rock hard under my right hand. I knew he was cumming. I pulled hard into him. I felt my throat resist his pulsing extra thickness. I did not gag. I relaxed. I wasn't hurting for oxygen so I just enjoyed the moment while he was getting his pleasure. He relaxed his hand. I don't know how long it had been but I wanted to please him for my first full blown deep throat experience. I stayed for another few seconds. Then I even surprised myself. I came off him just enough for the head to be leaking cum into my mouth. I held it with my left hand, pulled off, swallowed and slowly pushed him down my throat again. At the bottom, I fucked it again 4 times, pulled back till the head was still in and actually sucked him hard. He made a sound and grabbed it. I pulled back to look at him. He was looking at his dick. He gently pumped it a few times, looked me in the eye, back at his dick so I'd see the last drop. I took it. He pulled me up from my bench and asked for my number.

I knew I had arrived as a good cock sucker. I was so proud and disappointed at the same time. I look at all those years I could have been sucking cock instead of being the one getting sucked only.

Today, I'm well established as a good cock sucker living in the cabin on the lake. My place sets alone about 50 feet above the normal water line of a large reservoir in Oklahoma. Today, one young man who knows me, brought some friends to meet me; maybe I should say meat me, lol. However, they are reluctant to leave his houseboat temporarily anchored at my dock. It's raining. He said as much with his text. I said, I come to him. I put on a bathing suit and started down the steps. Down is harder than up when you are 75. I got there and was treated well by him and his guests. 4 young men in their early 40s, drinking and watching porn on the lake while it is raining means only one thing. This is about to be a "Fun With Dick" day far from the book by the same title we had in first grade. I grabbed a scotch and soda, complained about the clothing excess they were in. As they undressed, I went to the sink, twisted the water from my bathing suit and draped it of the sink spout. I laid my elbows on the counter in front of the sink and said "The ass is open."

One of Tim's friends did me well with his tongue before entering with his 5-inch stubby. He got off in just a few minutes. I thanked him and looked at the other two newbies. Both had 6 inches of hard meat ready for me. I asked them to sit side by side on the back of the sofa. I could go from one to the other while getting fucked by Tim. Tim fucked me with a longer dick and the big load of cum inside me helped him get off. Meanwhile, these two caved to my deep throat talents in just minutes as well. The beauty of getting a quick nut at their age is recovery is less than two hours.

We all feasted on the cold cuts, nuts and fruits while taking turns in the shower. Ole stubby got hard first for me to suck. He was used to having people suck all of him but he seemed to enjoy my efforts much. He gave me a nice load after only 4 minutes. He may have been helped by the ass he was eating while I sucked his cock. Even after cumming, he was quick to eat the ass of anyone who would bend over for him. That was mostly me as I bent to suck more hard long dicks. One of the long dicks fucked me to climax and stubby ate it out of me while I ate more dick. After each of them had nutted the second time, I got ready to leave. They insisted I stay for a game they planned before I arrived. These cocksuckers had put a thousand bucks each in a jar. Whoever made me cum, got the jar. They would rotate, sucking and fucking me for 3 minutes each. There was a timer. When it sounded, if you did have me cumming already, you had to immediately move over. I was pretty sure this would take a while. Tim was first and he just sucked me, then long dick 1 had a go. Stubby ate my ass, licked my balls and finally sucked my dick without success. Long dick 2 just fucked me and jacked me off for his turn. They had another round without success. I suggested a double up. They agreed. That gave me a dick in the mouth and someone sucking me at the same time. Then one sucked me while the other fucked me. Finally, I got one in the ass, two in the mouth and one sucking me at the same time. When one in the mouth started cumming, I did too. I announced it loudly. I always announce it loudly. My ass got warmer from that dick, the second one in my mouth was triggered by the first one he could see cumming when I started talking. He was cumming on that dick. I was torn between eating cum and announcing my own nut off.

As I was leaving, they were thanking me and Tim for such a wonderful rainy-day fun with dick time.