My First Time
I was 20 years old when I wrote this. I come from a real
religious family where sex is a very taboo subject. I live in North
Carolina and go to one of the big colleges there. Sexually, I guess
you could say I was a bit of a late bloomer. I am a nerdy type of
guy, making friends has been hard for me. I always had some feeling
that I was bisexual as I would get excited looking at hot guys and
girls. When I entered college the my bisexual / gay feelings
became harder and harder to ignore. I am a pretty small frame guy,
what some people might call a twink, but I hate that term. I am 5
foot 8 and weigh 145. I have done yoga and gymnastics in the past
for flexibility as they help keep me from getting injured when
running, which I love. I have black hair and brown eyes. I am not
circumsized and have a pretty thick cock. This whole story is true
and happened in 2009. I “grew up” reading this site over the past
several years and I am so happy that I have my own true story to
tell.
One night, while searching Craigslist for hot pictures I came
across an amazing ad written by another guy that seemed to
understand my situation (shy, nervous, in the closet). I was really
impressed with what he wrote in the ad. I drummed up enough
courage and replied. I was scared out of my mind.
We started email back and forth and it was pretty clear that he
understood my situation and the baggage from my religious
background and quickly put me at ease. He looked really hot in the
picture he sent me. His named was Chris. He was nearly 15 years
older than me! We agreed to meet at a restaurant near my dorm room.
During the meal, I learned he had booked a hotel room nearby as
well. We talked for more than 2 hours over some great Italian
food. He was really patient, very charming, and cool. He was
divorced and bisexual. I was nervous as hell and he kept making
small jokes and relaxing me. At the end of the great dinner he
asked what I wanted to do next and I quietly told him I wanted to
take the next step. Looking back, I realize he was an expert at
seducing me, which I loved.
We went to this really nice hotel and he had an awesome suite that
was out of the way from all the other guests. I sat down on the
couch and he sat next to me. I had never kissed anyone before and
was amazed as how softly he kissed me. He was very patient with
me, We started to French kiss, I was a little uneasy with all the
kissing, but my cock was hard as a rock. I kinda jumped as he ran
his hand up my leg and stroked my cock through my pants. Quietly
he whispered in my ear that we should go to the bed. He took my
hand we landed on the bed.
The next few hours were an amazing blur. He was intense but
patient in bed. He carefully helped me out of my clothes and
whispered in my ear that he wanted to suck me off. He took off my
boxers and starting stroking my cock. The feeling was amazing as he
was able to take my cock down his throat and swallow while my dick
was in his throat. I cannot describe the feeling that came over me,
my legs went numb. For a while I literally could not feel my toes
as I think all the blood was rushing to my cock. He gave me head
for like 30 minutes straight.
He would take his tongue and glide it up and down on my dick. He
would suck the head of my dick and force his tongue in the slit of
my dick. He would then sucked gently on my balls and then quickly
took my cock and put it back in his mouth and proceed to ram my
cock down his throat. He would do this over and over and keep
slobbering on my dick. He was lubing up my cock with a lot of spit
and it finally started sliding down his throat with no effort at
all.
I was so nervous I was haying trouble coming. I had also jacked
off like three times that morning thinking about what was gonna
happen. Finally, he admitted that he had to take a break and he
slowly stated to jack me off. He was amazing with his hands. He
kept making sure that I was okay and was so gentle.
After a while, curiosity got the best of me and I started to feel
around in his pants. He was not a big as me, but his cock was
really really hard. He was not pushy and I was having the time of
my life. I started to feel my balls tighten, I screamed “I am
gonna come!” and the next thing I know his mouth was back on my
dick swallowing my load. We had talked about safe sex in email
and kinda figured the risk was very low as he was recently divorced
and I was a virgin --- you should always us a condom – we had a
reason not to. He sucked so hard on my dick, I felt this weird
movement in my balls. I could not believe but he was able to get
more come out of me! I was so absolutely drained and exhausted
after that I begged to take a nap. He was more than happy to
oblige. I felt uncomfortable being naked next to Chris. I was so
sleepy but he was so nice and gave me a massage. I drifted off to
sleep. The last thing I remember before falling asleep was Chris
holding me and saying it was okay to be who I was. I nearly cried.
About 45 minutes later I felt his hand gently working my cock and
he woke me up with a really deep French kiss. Chris started to
suck on my fingers while stroking my cock. I was rock hard in a
few seconds. I realized later that he does not have a gag reflex
as he had no problem putting three of my fingers down his whole
throat. He really got me very excited. He asked very softly if I
wanted to give him a blow job. I was so nervous, but I could not
have asked for a better partner for losing my virginity (male or
female, I am sure). I gently took off his shorts and proceeded to
suck on his cock. I could not believe how weird and exciting that
this felt. He was so gentle and guided me through the whole thing.
Before too long he was moaning pretty loudly. I was so focused
on doing the right thing I did not realize that my dick was going
soft. Chris sure did. He told me to get on top and 69 him. I
cannot describe how amazing that was. For some reason with me on
top and the angle of his head and my dick, I was able to put my
entire cock down his throat. I could not believe how amazing this
felt. He started to play with my asshole a little bit. He could
not get a finger in me cause I was so tight and nervous so he just
kept on deep throating my cock. I was really getting into sucking
his dick and he was really starting to make a lot of noise! He
was groaning and moaning and starting to fuck my throat a little
bit I feel bad but I started to get a little too excited and
accidentally scraped his dick with my teeth. He let out a small
yell! I apologized repeatedly but he said it was okay. We
giggled a little bit.
We stopped our 69 to give his dick a break. He said it was
probably a good thing that I scraped him as he thought he was gonna
come too soon. He kept on complimenting me on my cock and feeling
my balls. He asked me if I wanted to fuck, and I was confused
about his question. We had agreed in email that anal sex was not
gonna happen. He got this amazingly devilish smile on his face and
picked me up kind and sat my but down on his chest. Chris was a
bigger guy (6 foot 2) but he was very very strong. In an instant I
guessed what was gonna happen; I was going to “fuck” his face. He
put a pillow be hind his head and told me to think of pussy or
straight porn in my head.
I put my dick in his mouth and he (it is hard to describe) changed
the shape of his lips and his mouth and clamped down on my dick.
The sensation was amazing. I started to think of the pics and
videos I had seen on porn sites of gorgeous women and started to
fuck his face. He was keeping up with me and using his tongue on
my cock. For the next twenty minutes I imagined that I was having
sex with a chick. I knew it was Chris sucking my cock, but I could
not get the images of the girls out of my head. I looked down and
behind me through the art deco mirror (this was not some cheap dive
of a hotel --- very nice) and saw Chris whacking off. It made me
hot to realize that he was so talented with his mouth I forgot he
was giving me a blow job. I kept fucking his face and felt my dick
swelling up. Because I am un cut he was doing some wild stuff to
my foreskin with his tongue that was absolutely driving me nuts.
Occasionally I would go down his throat and once he hummed a very
low sound when I was down there. That about did it for me. I was
trying to keep from coming as I was enjoying this so much but the
sensation and expert head he gave me was too much. He must have
picked up on how close I was as he started to suck harder on my
dick and humming while I was fucking his face. Between the tongue
action, the deep throat and the wet feeling in his mouth. I could
not hold back and erupted the biggest load of my life into his
mouth.
I pulled my dick out of his mouth and just fell to the bed. He had
this funny look on his face and he came up to kiss me. I was a
little hesitant but he took the back of my head gently and guided
me in to his mouth. In an instant I was shocked. He flooded my
mouth with my own come, I thought he had swallowed it. I was a
little grossed out for a second, but it was so erotic. I later
learned that this is called snowballing. He then kinda sucked the
come back into his mouth and I heard him make a big swallowing
sound. He then giggled at me and put my nose to his and asked if I
was okay. I had all these feelings and emotions running through
my head. I got really quiet and realized that all of my innocence
was gone. Being a virgin was a big part of my religious existence
and now I was laying in bed next to this great guy no less.
I could not ask for a better partner and experience. I dont know
if I will ever do it again with him because some of the guilt
especially with the kissing was a little tough on me. I am a deans
list student at school and, I know this sounds odd, but I was very
distracted from my school work for like a week . We still talk,
he still checks in on me from time to time and we have become great
friends. I know that if I was ever in a jam or needed to talk to
someone I can call him which is very comforting cause I would be
scorned and ridiculed in my church for talking about any of this,
let alone being with a man.
Thanks for letting me writing this. I made me feel better and got
me hard again just thinking about it. Perhaps, I will give him a
call, I really liked that hotel suite!
