This is my first story I’ve posted so sorry if it doesn’t read well or feels too rushed. I’m hoping to do more so let me know what you think and what improvements you think I can do. This story is completely true and it is myself in the story.
My first sexual experience.
I was 22 and considered myself bi-curious although I really preferred girls. I was still a virgin and hadn’t even kissed a girl which is why I think I started looking at and getting fixated by cock. Any kind of cock no matter what it looked like was beginning to become a turn on for me. I was looking for variety to keep the frustration at bay and often posted on craigslist to speak to guys, see pics of their cocks and find out about what they would do with me. I’m naturally very submissive and think that is one reason I hadn’t been with any girls. At first posting a picture on craigslist was very nerve racking but eventually I was putting up 10 photos and chatting about literally anything to anyone, it was like a drug and eventually it became more normal and I was seeking that excitement again. I intended to meet with someone eventually but couldn’t bring myself to do it. The fear of the unknown and I what somebody could do to me always stopped me from going through with actually meeting someone.
With my excitement waning I began talking about kinkier things like sexual slavery and blackmail scenarios, I really began to see my submissive nature coming through in all these conversations. Talking about such risky things was such a turn on and so exciting. In my mind a blackmail scenario was perfect for me, to give someone some of information and some pictures then I would have to go through with meeting someone and get me over that fear. I was still very wary and wanted to give the information to the right person who I felt I could trust. I had chatted to a few people but hadn’t given any information to anyone, a few people I stopped responding to because they weren’t what I was looking for. However one person kept emailing me. After a while he emailed with my name, members of my families names and said that if I didn’t reply within an hour he would show them all my pictures and expose what I was really like. The fact that he had worked out who I was by how little information I gave him was so scary and exciting at the same time, I couldn’t believe it I’d never been so nervous in my life my whole body was literally shaking.
I thought of a reply and emailed him back, I hadn’t intended to tell them exactly who I was just to give them an old friend’s email address that was a little risky but no too much. Once he knew exactly who I was and my whole family I couldn’t wriggle out of it. He emailed me stating to meet him the next day, I knew I couldn’t say no, after months of talking online I was finally having to meet someone and they could do exactly what they wanted with me. The next day I woke up and got ready to go, this was the part where I would normally back down and not go, leaving the front door was so hard. That day I had no choice I had to leave my front door and I was very quickly on my way to a park near his house where he wanted to meet me. My heart was pounding I hadn’t been so scared in all my life but there was still that submissive part in me that was excited and wondering what was going to happen.
I had to email him when I was there and I did, he then told me he had the remains of a black eye and it was then that it hit me what an extreme situation I had got myself in to. When he met me he marched me back to his house with very minimal chat, I was a like a rabbit caught in the headlights too nervous to talk. He was in his mid 30's very muscly and with his black eye cut a very imposing figure. We got to his house and I knew as soon as I stepped inside there was no going back, he would be able to do whatever he wanted with me no matter what that was and I wouldn’t have any say at all. Walking through his door became a lot scarier than ever walking through mine.
Before I knew it I was inside and upstairs both naked waiting to be told what to do. He told me to get on the bed and start sucking his cock, his cock was soft but much bigger than mine when soft. I began to suck it and got my fist smell and taste of cock. There was a very slight taste of piss at first but it was quickly gone as I began sucking his cock in many positions until it was rock hard. His cock was massive, at least 7” and very thick. Once I had got him hard he continued to position me how he wanted and started face fucking me. Hitting the back of my throat and holding my head down on his huge cock stuffing my mouth and making me gag so much. I was very much enjoying sucking his cock and licking his balls until the first time his cock hit the back of my throat and it was then I realised I have a very strong gag reflex. It then just became a challenge to not throw up as he kept forcing my head deeper and deeper. He kept getting harder and harder no matter how much I gagged either calling me a ‘good slut’ or telling me I could do ‘better than that’ depending on how deep and long I took his cock. He then demanded me to do it myself and despite the feeling and the water in eyes I found myself thrusting my own head deep down on his cock and again my submissive side really started to show as I began to enjoy it again. He eventually came in my mouth at first I didn’t realise as I was so overwhelmed, and I’m still not sure if I actually swallowed or not to this day.
He then laid me on my front and lubed my ass. Until this point all I had put up my ass was a few marker pens and my fingers and he was getting ready to push his huge cock straight in. He pushed in right to the hilt, it felt like he was tearing me in two. My ass felt like it was on fire and with every thrust it got more painful. I have quite a high pain threshold and can normally deal with pain well but I’d never felt a pain quite like this before. I kept saying ‘oh fuck’ over and over again, my body tensed up and went very rigid. Fearing that I might resist and pull away he pinned both my arms above my head and continued to plough away as I just led there unable to move or get away. He continued for what felt like an hour until he was done and he came in me, although it was probably only 5 minutes. After he pulled out I felt like I couldn’t move just laying their totally used, he told me he was done and to get dressed and that it would be easier next time.
I was thankful to get out of there and that it was over and I was still in one piece. I kept thinking as I was on my way home, that I was sure because I hadn’t actually consented to anything that it was actually rape. Still there was that excitement though, it was thrilling, my senses were heightened. I felt used and abused but at the same time felt where I kind of belonged. When I got home I immediately checked my email, I hoped that there was nothing and he would be disinterested in carrying on. Instead O found an email that said ‘I think you can become a real good slut. Plus the video came out really well.’ My heart immediately sank again, before I went all he had on me was naked pictures and a few fantasies that I could maybe try and deny, now he had full video of me being the submissive slut that I was. There were a few things I learnt from my first sexual experience, anal was extremely painful, I loved being submissive and sucking cock and would definitely be doing it again, and there was no way out of my situation I would have to keep doing anything that he wanted no matter what.
Hope you enjoyed, let me know what you think and if you would like more. I will do requests as well, on absolutely anything.
